You know when you are bumping along with things and then something hits you and you wonder where it's come from? Well that's how it is here at them moment.
My husband has put something out there that i am having a hard time getting my head around. I know he has been fed-up for a while, with his job mainly, his job is stressful and working away from home doesn't help, but he seems to not want to be bothered with anything, and that includes me too, or so it seems.
I don't think there is anyone else involved, from what he's saying (and it's hard to get him to talk) it sounds like a depression and he can't see a way out. He does have a history with this sort of thing....long, long story.
I just don't know what's happening, or going to happen, it may even mean me starting all over again on my own at 51, just when i thought my life would be getting better, easier, it is getting harder and more complicated.
I wanted to put it down here because i can't tell anyone else, not family and certainly not the girls until i understand it more myself.
I don't want this blog to become a place to be miserable so i might not be posting very often in the near future, although i will still try to visit your blogs when i can.
I have several stitching projects that i want to finish, and if i feel the inclination to work on them i will share it with you but at the moment i just want to curl up on the sofa, put a blanket over my head and pretend this is not happening.
I feel rejected, hurt and sorry for myself, but i've got to keep it together, the shopping, cooking and cleaning still has to be done, it's just so hard.
Thank you for listening, I'm going to click 'publish' now before i change my mind