Tuesday, 23 March 2021

One year on

I've had a break from stitching this past week, instead I decided to cast on the Flax Light sweater, (or jumper as we call them here in the UK).

I'd already got the drops Nord yarn in stash so the only outlay was some small circular needles.
I'm enjoying it so far and it's easy enough to knit on while I'm re-watching Line of Duty.

Mark got my Easter decorations down from the loft on Saturday so everything looks very Spring like around here now.

Mark groaned when I came back from Asda on Saturday and presented him with my latest bunny addition πŸ‡πŸ‡πŸ‡

Isn't she cute? Anything that makes me smile at the moment is welcome.

I've decided she is a girl bunny, too cute to be a boy!

I put a few things on my mantle but I do have other bits around, I'll show more next time.

 Well, It was twelve months ago today that the UK went into lockdown and the office I worked at closed like all offices around the country.  We thought it would only be for a few weeks and yet here we still are. 

You will probably know if you have been a visitor here for a while that it was during the first lockdown that I was made redundant.  The way it was gone about was not very nice and people where not who I thought they were.  I'm only in contact with the other woman who worked on reception with me, we text or message each other occasionally if we have something to say, other than that I am not in contact with anyone who I worked with, and that's how I want it.

I don't mind admitting that I was gutted when I lost my job, I've cried, quite a lot, over the last year, I would never have thought being made redundant would have such an effect on a person, it's only a job after all, there are worse things in the world.  But it has affected me in ways I didn't expect, not only did I loose my job I also lost my routine and a purpose to my days, it affected my moods, my confidence and took away my feeling of independence.  We are lucky, my wage was never depended on, it was extra but it was there if needed and it was something I had earned so, yes it did take away my independence.  

I've been struggling a lot these last couple of weeks, I know it's a phase and it will pass but at the same time I know that I'm not the same person I was twelve months ago.  Hopefully along with the Spring flowers a better mood will take over.

I see coffee shops in town getting ready for re-opening on April 12th although the rest of the high street looks apocalyptic, so many places have shut their doors for good, lets hope in time it can recover.

Sorry to end with a moan, but i'm just feeling moany at the moment.

Take care



Poppypatchwork said...

So many of us feel the same. Struggling at this time, we need freedom, these restrictions are hurting our souls, everything crossed it all goes to plan and we can return to some kind of normal life.

Beverley said...

Hope you feel better soon, it has been such a strange year and you are not alone.

Dee said...

I'm so sorry you lost your job. That really IS a hard thing, especially when you think it was done not very nicely.

I think I mourn for the life I used to have. I don't think things will go back to the way they were. People have become so rude and entitled (not that they weren't before, but it's worse now). I used to LOVE sitting in a coffee shop. While some are open, it is certainly not the same. A lot have a 30-minute rule. There is no relaxing over your coffee anymore. The timer is counting down.

But ...........we're still here with a roof over our head and food on the table. I suppose we will get used to whatever the "new" normal will be ......eventually.

Your spring bunnies sure brought a smile to my face. Hope they make you a bit happy too. They are adorable!

Devon Mum said...

It really has been a difficult year in lots of ways and whilst I'm obviously looking forward to getting back to a normal life, I'm sure it will take time to adjust back.
Love all your Easter decorations and that new bunny is lovely!

butterfly said...

Yes it's been a strange year , I myself have liked staying in and having hubby at home working , but I have had the odd day when I feel a little low .
When I stopped work it took me a long time to adjust .
Your Easter decorations will make you feel better and spring is on it's way .
So it will be nice to get in the garden,
Take care lots of Hugs .

Jo said...

I knit the Flax Light for one of Eleanor's friends who had a baby and she said it was the baby garment she used the most, she loved it, even though I think it's the worst thing I've ever knit because the yarn had a colour fault running through it. I love your little rabbit, I should make more of an effort to decorate for the seasons, I only ever decorate for Christmas. I don't have a mantle to display things on, I wish I did. I think losing your job can be very demoralising. I wasn't made redundant but I felt I had no choice when I left my job and it definitely changed the person I am. I think it's even harder for those who have lost their job over the past year as there's been so much more to contend with too. It's been a tough time, let's hope that things are now on the up, fingers crossed.

Shrimpton and Perfect said...

Even the strongest of folk are struggling now, it's only natural. I do hope you find some new employment once lockdown lifts, something that is really satisfying and gives you pleasure. I do love all your bunny bits, very joyful.
Jean. x

Barb said...

The loss of a job can be very traumatic so be easy on yourself. The way they did it was very unkind. I hope the flowers and Spring bring happier times to the whole world! At least those of us in the Northern hemisphere!

Heritage Hall said...

If you have any awareness of the goings on out there, you are bound to be disconcerted. We were meant to live in community and
this lockdown has created a lengthy isolation that has been debilitating for many.Thank you for displaying your Spring collection and for lifting spirits. The egg tree is so lovely.
Although a career door has closed, it does not mean another will not open...just sad that your coworkers missed the opportunity to
show kindness. Your sense of self and independence will return once you find your niche again and the coffee shops are in full
swing. In the meantime, we have each other in this community and
it has kept itself pretty friendly and caring. Just love the
jumper you are making.

Lowcarb team member said...

Yes, it's certainly been a strange year and not an easy year.
With the vaccination programme going so well let us hope the UK can open up a little more and ease our sense of isolation ...

I do like your Easter dΓ©cor.

Take care, my good wishes.

All the best Jan

Jackie said...

Not a nice way for them to make you redundant. I don't blame you for not being or wanting to be in contact.

Hopefully things will look brighter once spring is in full swing.

God bless.

Clare-Aimetu said...

Hugs Maggie, it's very understandable how you feel and you should talk/write about it, it's not good to keep things I side. Your spring decorations look lovely, I'll be doing ours next week with maybe a few changes this year.

Robin said...

I am so sorry you are feeling down. This past year has been like no other. I don’t know if some of us will ever have the normal we were used to. I pray we will all be more appreciative of the smaller things and being with family, healthy and eventually being able to move about freely.

Christine said...

Sending you a cyber hug and elbow tap! Your spring bunnies and your beautiful yard are inspiring for those of us slow to get up and begin the spring cleaning process. Thank you for taking the time to share photos of them with us. Here's to healing.